Wrote this in Utrecht a little while ago. It’s set up like the zen koans found in The Gateless Gate.
“Surely this is perfect. I feel perfectly non-existent. I suppose I could just collapse into nothingness with a whim.” With a whim he disappeared from where he sat.–
Some would imagine this man has achieved a realization, but this is clearly not the case if nonbeing is the result. It is not understanding that has reprieved him. The awakening is not mental, it is antimental. So what do you make of ‘collapse’ and ‘whim’? Mind not to dwell in words. For this is indeed what is meant by ’sat.’
This man uses words as a sword, not a blockade.
The whim is a no-whim
The collapse is no collapse
He who disappears
Returns to sit again